Doja Cat Opens Up About Drugs, Trauma, and Internet Hate in a Series of Social Media Posts

Doja Cat is opening up like never before about some of her personal struggles with drugs and alcohol in a series of social media posts. She’s also finally addressing some past racial controversies that surrounded her years ago.

Her words came through a series of recently posted TikTok videos in which she explained some of her past words and actions. She started by noting that a lot of her actions were the result of her marijuana and alcohol use, which, combined with negative online interactions, only confirmed the harmful feelings she felt towards herself.

“The best example, from my experience, is using the internet as a means of validation to the negative thoughts in my head, which were then brought on by drinking alcohol. I never had a real problem with drugs, except for weed. But alcohol is something that I’ve definitely had a problem with. I was never an alcoholic, but I definitely had problems,” she said in part.

She went on to urge her followers not to pair alcohol and doomscrolling, and instead encouraged them to stay creative and intentional about taking care of themselves. In a follow-up video, she revealed that she struggled with cocaine use about eight years ago, but assured everyone that she was “well past” that stage in her life.

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The “Paint the Town Red” rapper also noted that most of the negativity being spewed across the internet comes from people who are dealing with their own internal struggles and are simply projecting. Knowing that, Doja said that when she sees bad things aimed at her nowadays, she doesn’t give it the same energy as she may have in times past.

In her last video, she explained that her upbringing led her to develop feelings of self-hate, beginning when she was eight years old. She described moving into a white suburb when she was younger and how she felt being one of four Black kids in her entire neighborhood

“I think growing up that way, that’s just what comes with it. And understanding that has made me feel a lot stronger because I now have a direction to go in, as opposed to just sitting in my own filth and my own confusion,” she explained.

She went on to tell viewers that she wants to “personally dead” the narrative that she hates herself as a Black person. The “Gorgeous” rapper also explained that she was learning to enjoy how her hair looks and feels and was continuing to educate herself on topics related to race and Blackness.

“I don’t hate myself. I’m not racist. I’m not a white supremacist. I’m not a Nazi. And I will talk about this more in the future, but I’m gonna do it in a different way. But I felt like this TikTok was necessary, and I needed to get this shit off of my chest,” she said.